I’m reading a book who written by Sheila Walsh (‘Love back to life : how I found the courage to life free”). I found out some paragraph and poems that meant to me a lot.
Chapter 5 : why are you afraid ?
“I am learning that what God cares about is who I am when the lights are off and the crowds has gone home. This truth also means that whatever comes into my life, whether it is what I would choose or not, can be used by The Lord to mold my life if I will trust HIM.”
this below paragraph teach me to handle my anger and hatred. Sometimes it is hard for me to go through the bad feeling that happens inside me when I get hurt from family member especially the one you put trust on. in this paragraph, Sheila teach me to give all hurt to my shepherd “my Jesus”
“I am learning now to trust the shepherd to be my defender. For me it is a daily, sometimes hourly, relinquishing of control of my life and my destiny to God. When I feel myself getting angry now, I take a step back. I go into another room by myself, sit at the shepherd’s feet, and tell Him what I am feeling. When I forget to do that or choose not to do that, I ask for forgiveness. I do not take this lightly. It is no fun to be the recipient of my anger. Scripture, in fact, tell us to avoid such people (proverbs 22:24). Though this year, the anger has subsided as I have consciously brought all the broken pieces of my life to Christ. It is one thing to feel as if power has been taken from you as a defenseless child. It is quite another to gladly surrender is as an adult to a risen Savior”
the Poems she wrote :
I never knew You lived so close to the floor, but every time I bowed down, crush by this weight of grief, I feel Your hand on my head, Your breath on my cheek, Your tears on my neck, You never tell me to pull myself together, to stem the flow of many years, You simply stay by my side, for as long as it takes, so close to the floor.
Grace Room 